Kihei, Maui - 5/9/2001

Today I Go Shopping

Didn't do much today either. I communicated to my parents the other day that the one thing I really wanted to do in my remaining time was to check out some used bookstores and the one comic book store on the entire island of Maui. I figured that I'd find stuff in these places that I wouldn't be able to find anywhere else... and lucky me, I just happened to find some cool things. My mom went to a couple of other mall type places later in the afternoon, but I just hung out in the car looking over my little treasure trove of goodies and then tromped around the Maui Mall a little.

We stopped in a cute little place in Wailuku for lunch - a little bakery and deli joint. They had these adorable little marzipan desserts in their display case, little creme filled cakes in the shapes of pigs, frogs, chickens, rabbits, and mice (each a different flavor).

Last Words

I think this will be my last entry; though I will technically still be doing some stuff during the day tomorrow (my flight doesn't leave until about 9:40pm - 3:40am Eastern time), I don't think I'm going to have much time to actually write anything for the journal and then get a chance to upload it. I'll be arriving in Los Angeles around 5am PST, then getting into Logan around 3:40pm EST. Jet lag a go-go!

I read Ender's Game today. Yes, the whole book. It was pretty good. What can I say, I'm a fast reader... it's been a really long time since I've been able to just relax and spend a day reading a book like that. I picked up Speaker For The Dead and Xenocide, and I'll probably be reading those on the plane tomorrow night. These two weeks of vacation have been really good for me, if for no other reason than allowing me the time to indulge in something like that and not worry about the pressures of work or anything else.

I'm a little ambivalent about coming home. Not a lot; there's still so much holding me down in Massachusetts. Mostly the weight of my friends, a "burden" I bear gladly. I can hardly imagine what it would be like to just drop everything and move here, like that girl I met yesterday. The thought really wouldn't even cross my mind except for the fact that I probably could do that if I wanted to - I'm sure I could find someone to get me a computer based job out here, and I'm sure I'd make enough to support myself pretty easily. There are some few responsibilities tying me down back home; but really and truly there is nothing holding me back from just picking everything up and starting over somewhere new.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm thinking this way. Maybe I just feel like I need something new again. Maybe I'm tired of letting the same dumb things happen to me all the time back home. Maybe loneliness is really starting to get to me.

Maybe instead of changing my location, I need to change my self. But maybe I've already started to do that.

I wasn't expecting to do a lot of self-examination on this trip, but I guess it's happened anyways. It was still a good vacation regardless of the various and sundry ups and downs. I do still want to go home.

See you soon!